How good does success actually feel?

For a moment. Hahaha.

When I got a result at seventeen, I thought: the moment you're rewarded lasts five minutes. The question is how much of the other 365 days you can endure.

What you want comes with price tags that aren't money: time, energy, self-hatred, anxiety, disappointment.

For me, those 365 days are much longer than the five minutes.